It is about to happen. Our eldest, first to leave, is heading off to college. Someone just said to me (as was told to them when their first departed) that it is like taking your arm, cutting it off, and sending it away. I am really feeling this. Of course it is natural and right for children to grow, leave, learn to become useful adults, and eventually start their own families. Of course this is what we have always wanted for our children. The reality of it happening is still feeling like something breaking. I think it might feel like how regeneration can feel. We need to ask the Lord to take pieces of us and push them away or to the sides so we can improve and become better. It is a healthy progression, but it still hurts. I can’t wait to see what each of our children will do with their lives, families and many uses. I just hope that we have provided them with good tools for these new uses. 

“There are two states that man must enter upon and pass through, when from being natural he is becoming spiritual. The first state is called Reformation, and the second Regeneration. In the first man looks from his natural to his spiritual state and longs for that state; in the second state he becomes spiritual-natural. The first state is formed by means of truths, which must be truths of faith, and through these he looks to charity; the second state is formed by means of the goods of charity, and by these he enters into the truths of faith. Or what is the same, the first is a state of thought from the understanding, and the second a state of love from the will. When this latter state begins and is progressing, a change takes place in the mind; the mind undergoes a reversal, the love of the will then flowing into the understanding, acting upon it and leading it to think in accord and agreement with its love; and in consequence so far as the good of love comes to act the first part and the truths of faith the second, man is spiritual and is a new creature; and he then acts from charity and speaks from faith; he feels the good of charity and perceives the truth of faith; and he is then in the Lord, and in peace, and thus regenerate.” True Christian Religion 571

“The spirits with man, however, are changed in accordance with the changes of his affections; thus there are some spirits that are with him in early childhood, others in boyhood, others in youth and manhood, and others in old age. In early childhood those spirits are present who are in innocence and who thus communicate with the heaven of innocence, which is the inmost or third heaven; in boyhood those spirits are present who are in affection for knowing, and who thus communicate with the outmost or first heaven; in youth and manhood spirits are present who are in affection for what is true and good, and in consequent intelligence, and who thus communicate with the second or middle heaven; while in old age spirits are present who are in wisdom and innocence, and who thus communicate with the inmost or third heaven. But the Lord maintains this association with such as can be reformed and regenerated.” Heaven and Hell 295

“For I know the thoughts that I think upon you, says Jehovah, thoughts of peace, and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. And you shall call upon Me, and you shall go and pray to Me, and I will hearken unto you.  And you shall seek Me, and find Me, when you shall inquire after Me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13

About Eliza

I am wife to Matthew Genzlinger and mother of 7 big and little humans. We lived in Concord, MA for 11 years until last year when we moved to Kempton, PA. Until recently We were homeschooling all our kids, now we have the eldest in the Kempton New Church school and our smaller girls are still at home. Matthew teaches at the Bryn Athyn College and Academy of the New church. I love working on raising potential angels, making a home for us. I love to run (when I can squeeze it in) and sewing and cooking are some of my favorite home-activities.

2 thoughts on “Changes

  1. You have all my sympathy, Eliza. We were heartbroken when Jared left South Africa to go to college. We felt like there had been a death and walked around feeling kind of bowed down for while. It did get a lot easier, of course.
    Take care!

    1. I am sure sending our son to the same school as his father is teaching at and in the same state will be less painful!

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